_~_~_When tomorrow starts without me, and im not there to see,
if the sun should rise  find your eyes, all filled with tears for me.
i wish so much you wouldnt cry, the way you did today.
While thinking of the many things, we didnt get to say,
i know how much you love me, as much as i love you,
and each time that you think of me, please try to understand,
that an angel came and called my name, and took me by the hand.
and said my place was ready, in heaven far above,
and that i'd have to leave behind, all that i truly love.
But as i turned to walk away, a tear fell from my eye.
For all my life, i always thought,
i didnt want to die. i had so much to live for,
so much left yet to do, it seemed almost impossible,
that i was leaving you. I thought of all the yesterdays,
the good ones and the bad, i thought of all the love we shared,
and all the fun we had. if i could relive yesterday,
just even for a while, i'd say good bye  kiss you,
and maybe see you smile but then i fully realised,
that this could never be, for emptiness  memories,
would take the place of me. And when i thought of worldly things,
i might miss come tomorrow, i thought of you, and when i did,
my heart was filled with sorrow. but when i walked through heaven's gates,
i felt so much at home. when god looked down and smiled at me,
from his great golden throne. he said 'this is enternity and all that i've promised you.
today your life on earth is past, but here life starts anew.
I promise no tomorrow, but today will always last.
and since each days the same way, there's no longing for the past.
you've been so faithful, so trusting and so true.
though there were some times, you did some things,
you knew you shouldn't do. but you have been forgiving,
and now at last you're free. so wont you come and take my hand,
and share my life with me?" so when tomorrow starts without me,
dont think we're far apart, for every time you think of me,
i'm right here in your heart

that guy seems to be always falling in love.  maybe too many times,
and not enough times with me.  he's probably hoping for something more,
and i'm almost certain he'll get it.  that guy just never seems to smile,
and the times that i do see him smile, he always runs away.  and it never seems
like quite enough, but i do my best.. and i guess that's all i could ask for.
i'm thinking about different times and i'm thinking about never getting what
you really want.  i'm thinking about keeping my hands in my pocket and getting
away with more than i bargain for.  he probably thinks i'm a big
asshole, and i'm thinking that it's better that way.  i guess it'll get him to keep
his distance, and of course i'll keep mine.  everything said was never meant,
and wishes upon wishes never seem to come true.  i've been wrong all this time,
and i'd much rather have a different intention.  i hope she's smarter than i was,
and gets away with much more than i ever did.  maybe we'll just end
up being the same person.. and he'll have to come to terms with how much
he thinks he doesn't care.  i'll let go of his hand, and he can just
walk on his own.  my heart is to heavy to have him carry around all the time.
i'll just decide to stop.. stop doing what i love and stop thinking about the same
things.  maybe i'm better off knowing that i'm exactly the same as everyone else.
honestly, i just can't remember how it felt to be that much in love, but i seem
to pretty good at lying.  lying to myself.  and i wish that he was falling in love
with me, or maybe i dont.  i just want him to be around.. maybe i dont.  lets just
forget it all, forget each other.