so i went to his funeral today, there was sooo many people there. like, the people filled the chapel and the forum area. but it just goes to show how many peoples lives he touched. and even though he was into some bad things he was so close to letting everyone know how he was with God. Jesse had been working on that for a long time. He wanted to know God. and, so i know he is with him. that just makes me feel so much better. i don't know what to say, i mean putting on make-up this morning was a total waste, it was gone be the end of the ceremony. but it was really good. they had a slide show going of him, the grade school pictures came on, and i was in a lot of them, and a lot of them brought back memories, and i remember how much fun we used to have, before he got into the drugs and stuff. it makes me feel bad about fighting with him over drugs becuase now he's gone. and i don't know what to do. everything is so different now. i just...i just can't imagine how much this is going to change everyone's life. the only thing i can say is, if you smoke pot or anything like that, pleasePLEASEplease stop! It not only ruined his life and the other people's in the car, but also every single person's life that was at the funeral today, and everyone's lifes that couldn't make it. I'm still confused as to how God could let something like this happen, and i'm kinda mad. but for some reason i don't seem to be holding it against him. i dunno, it's weird. i guess i know in some way it's going to all work out. and i know one day i will take my trip to heaven, and he will be there to greet me. Jesse always said, he didn't understand life, it was too confusing, i'm just glad that now, he's happy and can understand it all, even though none of us may be able to.